Its Monday & the Laundry is Almost Done

I do laundry on Sundays.  For some reason, whether or not I actually get the laundry finished on Sunday speaks to how my week is going to go.  Last week, for example, the laundry stayed on my couch the entire week.  I’m not exactly sure why – I was just busy and distracted.  That also means that I didn’t eat particularly well, didn’t exercise and in general, just felt blah.

I was sick a couple of weeks ago and had come out of that determined to really and truly make changes to how I eat.  As it seems to go with all of my other “determinations”, it lasted a couple of days.  Ugh.

Here it is Monday yet again.  I just heard from my best friend in Vegas – she’s doing great with some new eating habits.  I’m really happy for her but it made me feel way, way terrible about myself.  Like, I almost started crying.  And I’m not really a crying person.


Instead of crying, I’m trying to take action.  I popped some garbanzo beans in the toaster oven to try roasting them again.  That was a gumdrop replacement snack but I didn’t get them quite roasted right last time.  I’ve surveyed the refrigerator and decided to make broccoli beef for dinner.  Its my daughter’s favorite, involves some veggies and I’ll make myself brown rice.

I’m also trying to remember that I’ve made some progress.  The gumdrops are still out of my car.  I’ve put ice cream in a bowl on the nights I’ve had some, rather than sitting down with the entire container.  I made an excellent new recipe – avocado edamame hummus and ate it with jicama.  I figured out how to make an omelet and had that for breakfast several times last week.

Despite this, I’m continuing to gain weight.  My blue work slacks are tight and they’ve never been tight before.  Its really, really hard for me to see the positive.

And, its only Monday and the laundry is almost done!  Its all through the washer and dryer and 50% folded!  Perhaps all is not lost for this week.



Towards Health – Day 1

O.k., as I talked about yesterday in my unfocused, rambling post (because that’s how I was feeling), I really need a plan to get healthier.  I live in a very food-centric, health-focused, outdoorsy place so it seems especially ridiculous that I’m struggling with this.

Yesterday, I took a very first baby step and took my dog on a short (very short – just over half a mile) walk.  After being sick for a couple of days, that was about all I could muster.  But I figured that some walking was better than no walking, right?

I need to remember that theory – that something is better than nothing.  I get stuck on the idea that a half mile walk is “stupid” and get upset at myself for not being able to walk more.  So then, I don’t do anything at all, which isn’t helpful and is just self-defeating.

Anyway, I also spent some time googling up high protein snacks.  Snacking is a big issue for me.  That, and the fact that I often don’t leave time for lunch in my schedule.  So I find myself without time for lunch and then eat some stupid, carb-laden, sugar snack instead.  Again, self-defeating.  So I have chickpeas roasting in the oven right now.

I changed breakfast this morning too.  My typical breakfast has been fruit and maybe some cheese.  By 9:30 I’m starving and so, what do I do??  Eat some stupid snack.  Like those gumdrops.  (Which have now left my car.)  This morning I had two scrambled eggs with some tomatoes and cheese.  10:00 came and I still wasn’t particularly hungry!  Amazing!

I struggled with whether or not to add the cheese to my eggs  – that’s where my conviction that I’m fat and resulting desire to eat less comes in.  But I think I need to focus on eating less of the wrong food, rather than just eating less in general . . . because clearly, that’s not working for me.

O.k., so I’m feeling pretty good today about having made a few small changes.  It really helps to write about it here.  It helps to think it through clearly and see it in black and white.  Next . . . I’ll think about exercise.  But for now, small steps.

Step 1 – Get Rid of the Gumdrops

I’ve been sick for the past couple of days.  And I did it to myself.  I know perfectly well that I’m hypoglycemic; if I don’t eat well (Protein!) and sort of frequently, I get sick.  Like, in bed, can’t function, throwing up, sick.  That’s how I spent all of yesterday.  Blech.

Part of the issue is that, at 5’4″ and 136 – 138 pounds, I’m 100% convinced that I’m fat.  You wouldn’t look at me and think “overweight” but that’s what I think when I look at myself.  So, I try to not eat a bunch.  I don’t “diet” exactly, I just try to not eat.  Except when it comes to sugar.

I love sugar.  I keep a container of really good gumdrops in each of my cars.  There’s almost always ice cream in the freezer.  And I eat it right out of the container – no need for a bowl!

So, the recipe for “sick” is not enough good food, too much sugar, too little water, and add in some stress.  I’m done.  My body literally does what I call a hard stop . . . all of a sudden, I get really hot, my vision gets blurry, my ears start to ring, and I know the next step is hitting the floor.

Its happened at work (they called 911) and it almost happened when I was out and about yesterday.  I managed to get home before hitting the floor.

So here I am, taking another day off of work, trying to rest and recover.  But I know what I really need is a plan to stop this from happening.  I know its multi-faceted – stress management, nutrition, exercise, self-image.  I know I need to eat more protein and less carbs.  I know I need to get rid of the gumdrops and stop buying ice cream.  I’ve know all these things for a long time; I just have such trouble putting them into practice for very long.

I need a plan.  Not quite sure where to get one.


“Its a Bit of a Hike”

I texted our friend to see if he wanted to get together for dinner.  “Yes, or, do you want to go fishing with us on Saturday?” came the reply.  “O.k., where, etc.?”  The plan was to go “poke poling” out at Dillon Beach.  “Its a bit of a hike out to the fishing spot.” our friend warned.  No problem!  We’re usually up for a hike.  And, a quick online check confirmed that we could take the dog.  Perfect!

The drive out to Dillon Beach is beautiful.  From our house, its just under an hour through the best of what (in my opinion) Sonoma County has to offer – long, 2 lane, slightly winding roads through green, green pastures of cows and sheep, over gently rolling hills until you get to the coast.

We parked alongside the road in the little coastal community of Dillon Beach.  First up, was about a quarter-mile walk to the beach.  As we were gathering up our stuff, our friend reminded us, “Its a bit of a hike to the fishing spot.”  Ummm . . . o.k..  I had woken up a little bit crabby and his reminder wasn’t improving my mood.

The beach was accessed by traipsing along the side of a property, across squishy ice plant, that allegedly is a public access.  Thankfully, the homeowner wasn’t home because apparently she takes issue with whether or not there’s actually an easement for public access across her property.  So, at least we didn’t get yelled at.

Next up was a fairly step, slightly slippery, trail down to the beach.  Again, not making me very happy.  I made it down without falling on my butt and was relieved once we got down to the sand.  I was almost happy until our friend pointed to some rocks very, very far off in the distance and announced that’s where the fishing spot was.  “What???  Why??!!!!”  I was seriously beginning to regret not having brought a book to read, which would have allowed me to plop down and spend the day right there.

Ugh.  We set off.  The hike was a torturous combination of walking across sand, scrambling over boulders, scaling some large rocks, more boulders, squeezing through a little rock tunnel, more boulders and more boulders.  To increase the fun, some boulders were wet, slippery, and covered in spots in mussels.

Normally the beach is my happy place.  I should have been delighted.  It was an absolutely gorgeous day – sunny with no wind.  But did I mention all those boulders?  Finally, finally, we got to the fishing spot.  Yep, that was a bit of a hike.  Once I had a snack and settled in, I began to notice what a beautiful spot it was.20180127_152453.jpg

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Needless to say, they got rather wet.  But, they also caught a bunch of fish!  I was perfectly content to watch the ocean, take pictures, peer into tide pools and hang out with my dog.

I don’t think I’ve ever seen tide pools with huge starfish.  They came in a couple of different colors!  There were these dark red ones . . .


And orange!


And, of course, there were tons of shells and mussels and other stuff that I don’t know the names for.

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It turned out to be a lovely day.  But at the end of it, there was that “bit of a hike” back.  And all those boulders . . .

Meet Prince Frizzle!

What happens when my husband can’t take our daughter to 4-H Chickens?  We come home with a new rooster!!  Meet Prince Frizzle!

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The activity for that night was practicing showmanship, so we could have brought one of our own chickens.  But, it was cold and rainy and dark and so we decided that Queen Victoria probably wouldn’t appreciate being taken out of her cozy coop, stuck in a carrying case, and carted off by herself to a place she’d never been to.

That meant that my daughter got to borrow a chicken to work with for the evening.  Out came Prince Frizzle (who wasn’t named at the time)!  “We want the Silkie!!” we both yelled, as soon as we saw him.

Prince Frizzle didn’t really know the chicken showmanship routine but he sat quietly in my daughter’s arms the entire night.  When we heard he was in need of a new home, he just had to come home with us.

I had a Silkie rooster many years ago.  Moo Goo Gai Pan was bought out of a store in San Francisco’s Chinatown and given to me as a hostess gift from a guy I met on an airplane.  Sweetest rooster I’ve ever had!  So I was super excited at the idea of another Silkie rooster.

So far, Prince Frizzle is living up to Moo Goo’s sweet reputation.  His favorite thing is to be carried around, cradled on his back like a baby, with his little feet sticking up in the air, and have his tummy feathers stroked.

My husband says he’ll definitely take our daughter to 4-H Chickens next time!

And Then There Were Three

O.k., so we’re down to three concepts for this year’s Rose Parade float (which will be in the 2019 New Year’s Day parade).  I wish I could show you the drawings or even give you a verbal sneak peek!  Alas, I can’t!!!

I can tell you that one concept, none of us really liked.  Basically, our artist was too lazy to redraw it and gave us the same concept from last year.  (Full disclosure – our artist and I tend to butt heads.)

So, realistically, we’re down to two.  We need a bit more input on animation possibilities and challenges for both of them.  One in particular really needs some more fleshing out.

Theme Draft – that’s where float concepts get submitted to Pasadena Tournament of Roses’ Float Committee for approval – is likely going to be February 14.  So we’ve got to get it figured out by then!

Stay tuned!!!

“He’s Just a Hard-Keeper”

Slewy, my off-the-track Thoroughbred, has always been a hard-keeper.  I feed him and feed him and feed him some more, and he eats everything in sight (I think feeding time is his absolute favorite thing) but he’s still skinny.  I’ve done all the basics – regular deworming, regular teeth floating, basic blood work, etc.

I’m embarrassed to say that I don’t think I realized just how skinny he was.  I think its harder when your horses live at home and you see them at least twice a day.  I stopped seeing that his hip bones were a little too pokey and his ribs showed a bit too much.  Plus, when I got him, he was still “race fit” so I’ve never really known him any other way.

I haven’t written about it much (probably because I’m embarrassed) but I’ve owned Slewy for seven years now and really have made very little progress on his training.  He’s still definitely what you would call “green”.  There’s a variety of reasons for that – the biggest one probably being my own confidence issues.  So, when I found a new trainer for my daughter that we both absolutely love, I decided it was time once again to tackle Slewy.

I managed to get on him a few times but noticed that every time I got his saddle out, he would roll his eyes with this, “please don’t put that on me” look.  Things didn’t improve once I was onboard.  Poor Slewy was so terribly tense that I was constantly fearful that he was going to explode any minute.  Which, of course, made me tense, which sent the two of us in a vicious circle.

Finally, my new trainer came out to take a look.  She informed me just how ridiculously skinny he was and convinced me that he can’t “just be a hard-keeper.”  She suspected gastric ulcers.  Thankfully, the super fancy vet clinic nearby was sponsoring a talk by the Ulcer Guard folks and were scoping horses for gastric ulcers for just $100.  So, off we went.

Unfortunately (or fortunately, depending on how you look at it I suppose) Slewy didn’t have any glaring ulcers.  He had one little tiny ulcer (maybe) but his entire stomach lining looked inflamed and ouchie.  Honestly, I was more than a little disappointed that we didn’t have a definite diagnosis.

So I plopped myself down in my vet’s office (different from the fancy vet clinic).  We decided to make some major changes to Slewy’s diet and did a briefer (less expensive) course of Ulcer Guard.  I decided to give him a couple of months off.

That was all in October.  Now, in late January here, I think he’s finally a little fatter!!!  I still haven’t put him back to work because its been raining and my arena is a swamp.  Slewy just gets turned out with his buddy, brushed, and fed.  While he’s working on putting some weight on, I’ve been taking lessons on my trainer’s dead quiet lesson horse to try to improve my confidence and get my legs back in shape.  Next step for Slewy is to start back on the lunge line (once my arena dries out) and then we’re going to take a look at how his saddle fits.  I wish I could take some of my minis’ fat and stick it on Slewy.  Then everybody would be in better shape!

Maybe Slewy will always be somewhat of a hard-keeper.  But at least now I feel like we’re on the right track to him being healthier.  I’m trying to not worry about the fact that his one month off has turned into several months.  We’ll get back to riding eventually and hopefully it will be a better experience for both of us!