Reset Day

The end of last week really fell apart.  All of my “living purposefully”, small goals, small steps, talk went right out the window.  I ended yesterday feeling miserable, depressed and like a total and complete failure.

Thankfully, for some reason, I woke up feeling much better this morning and am choosing to look at today as a reset day.  I’m choosing to focus on the fact that I did walk my dog three times last week, which included these lovely views:



I managed three days with much, much less sugar.  Three days is better than zero days!  And I managed a few posts here on my blog.

When I actually type it out, last week doesn’t sound all that bad!

This morning I read this great post titled, “Mindset Changes Everything” by Dr. Andrea Dinardo:  Dr. Dinardo points out that obstacles can be learning opportunities.

Right.  Learning opportunities.  What obstacles did I face?  Why did my new mindset go awry?  What do I need to look out for to make more progress this week?  What went well that I can build on?

I don’t have all the answers yet.  I do know that this is hard!!  I also know that my mantra needs to be “I can” and “I will” instead of “I want to” or “I wish”.

I was going to end this post with the thought that I will make this week a “better” week than last.  I think that’s another mindset I need to switch . . . away from the concept of “better”.  Last week, I did the best I could.  Thinking that I need to make this week “better” somehow implies to me that last week wasn’t good.  But it was.  I did a lot of things well.  And, if I didn’t do everything perfectly, well, that’s o.k.

So how about this . . . I will continue to move forward this week.




Living Purposefully . . . Is Hard!!!

A few days ago I wrote about my intent to live more purposefully.  I had a bunch of vague notions about what exactly that meant.  I’ve spent the past couple of days trying to put those vague notions into practice.

Its hard!!!!!

As a mom, wife, attorney, and wearer of many other hats, its incredibly easy to get swept up in work, household chores and running the kids here and there.

So I’ve decided to focus on a few things I can control.  (Because as much as I’d like to believe otherwise, I can’t control everything – at least, that’s what my therapist tells me.

1. Eat less sugar.  I’m a complete sugar addict.  While working on the Rose Parade float, I lived on these little gems:   20171230_195427.jpg  I literally ate 10 – 15 a day!  The frosting is my favorite part!!!  Now that I’m home, I’ve been plowing through candy and ice cream.  There’s a tub of gumdrops in my car.  But I can feel the ill effects of the sugar.  I’m tired, not focused, not sleeping well, and my face is breaking out.  Its time to once again seriously decrease my sugar intake!

2.  Eat better – this goes hand in hand with number 1.  Less sugar, more veggies, fruit and water.  I came back from Rose Parade float the heaviest I’ve been in quite awhile.  Ugh.

3.  Write more.  Writing is something I’ve wanted to do for a very, very long time.  I’m not sure I have a book in me but I can give myself 10 or 15 minutes several times a week to post something here.

O.k., normally I would go on and on with a huge list of other things I’m going to do.  Stopping at three is another thing I’m trying to do differently in my “live purposefully” quest.  I’m trying to slow down.  Focus on a few things at a time.  Not become overwhelmed, feel like I’m failing and then beat myself up.

I keep reminding myself to take baby steps and be patient.  And not give up just because its hard.  More than “I want to do this”; “I can do this.”

New Year . . . New Float

The 2018 Rose Parade has come and gone.  Thankfully, “Panda-monium” was an easy float to decorate.  Winning the Bob Hope Humor award was the perfect ending to our float “year”.

People often ask when we start on next year’s float (for the 2019 New Year’s Day parade, in this case).  They’re very surprised when I tell them “Right away!”.

Yes, the contest for this year’s float is open now!  Our first decision-making meeting is January 20 so submit your ideas now!  Go to our website at for the on-line entry form.  And remember, our by-laws state that our floats must be whimsical, humorous, and have the ability to be highly animated.

We can’t wait to see your ideas!!

Swept Along

I didn’t really make New Year’s resolutions.  (Is January 8 too late for a post about New Year’s resolutions?)  But, for 2018, I want to stop just being swept along by life.  I want to live purposefully.

I’m not even sure exactly what I mean by that.  I guess I want to live by making conscious choices rather than just bouncing from thing to thing.  I want to feel more focused.  And I’m hoping that leads to feeling more accomplished.

I’m not 100% sure how exactly to go about this.  I think its going to take some slowing down and being more thoughtful.  And allowing myself time and space.  I think its telling myself that its o.k. to be successful at something.  I think its about closing the door on anxiety and worry, which I’m guessing will allow more time for actually doing.

I think its about not making excuses.  And not procrastinating.  I think its about allowing for practice, rather than expecting perfection at every turn.  Its about plans and following through, trying again, and not giving up.  And allowing for mistakes!

Its about believing that a new way of living is possible.  Even if it sounds hard (which it does!)


Game On!

I’m on Day 3 of a new get healthy plan.  This one is called “Game On!”.  Its a program which focuses on all aspects of health – diet, sleep, water consumption, exercise, making a new healthy habit and letting go of an old, unhealthy, habit.

Plus, its all done in a friendly competition!


“Kick your friend’s butt while shrinking your own.”  Ha!  I love that.  The competition goes for 5 weeks.  A friend of mine set it up; she’s done it before.  We have 5 or 6 teams of 4 or 5 people each.  So far, its been great!  Every day, all day, there are a ton of emails that go around offering support, encouragement, tips, what’s working and what’s not.

So far, what’s great about it is that I feel like I have a plan for being healthy every day.  If I need some help or inspiration, there’s about 25 people who are ready and willing to lend a hand.  Plus, there’s the aspect of not wanting to let my team down.

I really need to do something because I weigh more than I ever have before.  I know 138 at 5’4″ isn’t the end of the world but a lot of my clothes are not fitting.  And I just haven’t felt well.  I’m tired a lot; I get out of breath easily.  And that’s not how I want to live.

I know I’m only on Day 3 of 5 weeks but I feel like this just might do the trick!

What’s Holding Us Back?

The other day, some of the ladies at work were, yet again, discussing their need to lose weight.  I laughed and said, “Yeah, you guys will lose weight when I speak Spanish.”  (Its o.k., we have that type of relationship so they weren’t offended.)

But it really got me thinking . . . this is a conversation I have with so many of my women friends.  The desire to do this or that . . . and the absolute lack of sustained progress.

It really got me thinking . . . What is holding us back??

In my last post, I asked “What would success look like?”  The question of “What’s holding us back?” is a little different.

I posed that question to my good friend and she answered, “Fear.”

O.k., but fear of what exactly??

I asked my Mom.  She answered that she doesn’t like to be noticed so she thinks that’s what’s holding her back from losing weight, dressing better, etc. . . . someone might then notice her if she were attractive.  To which I replied, “Well, maybe people are noticing now and thinking how frumpy you look.”  (O.k., so maybe that wasn’t very nice of me but I think it was a legitimate point.)

Back to fear.  I know that for me and Spanish (because that’s an easy example), I have the immediate fear that people are going to think I’m stupid or sound funny in my beginning attempts at speaking Spanish.  Logically, I know the people I can practice with will absolutely not make fun of me but the fear is still there.

But what’s beyond that?  What if I did accomplish some of my goals?  Would I be able to internalize that success?  Would I be more confident?  Would people then expect more of me?  And, to my Mom’s point, would people notice me more?  Am I comfortable with that?  What would my husband say if I stepped out of my comfort zone and did well?  What would my friends say?  (I know “true” friends support you no matter what, blah, blah, blah).

Aaaahhhh . . . so much unknown!!!!  So maybe my friend was right.  Maybe it is fear that’s holding us back, plain and simple.


Fewer Goals, Better Focus

I have a lengthy list of things I’d like to accomplish.  Unfortunately, I never make any sustained progress.  I’ll do good for a week or maybe two but then it all seems to fall by the wayside.  I’m frustrated by this and have been unable to find a solution.

Yesterday, it occurred to me that maybe I have too many goals.  Maybe I’m trying to accomplish too many things at once and therefore cannot focus and make progress on anything.  Here’s the current “goal list” (which has been the same for years):

Become fluent in Spanish.

Go back to riding my horse.

Train the pony to pull a cart.

Lose 10 pounds.

Actually do my physical therapy exercises twice a day.

Walk the dog daily, or at least every other day.

Get the kids to practice their respective instruments.

Focus on the positive – post a positive photo each day.

Do something on my “2017 List” – that’s a whole other list of things to do like “clean out my closet”, etc.

Make scrapbooks.

Decrease sugar; eat healthy.

I completely expect myself to make progress on all of those plus take care of daily life, which for me includes working as an attorney and all that goes along with having kids, a house, a husband, etc.

Is that unrealistic?  I’m beginning to think it is.

So, I’ve decided to try whittling down my goal list for a least a little bit.  I really struggle with feeling like I’m throwing in the towel.  But I’m hoping that fewer goals will equal better focus, which hopefully will lead to some actual progress and accomplishment.

I’m going to start with the goals that have to do with my health.  If I’m not healthy (which I am for the most part), riding, training the pony, traveling, and so many other things will be harder.  If I’m not healthy, it won’t matter if I’m fluent in Spanish or not.

Here’s the new goal list:

Walk dog – Exercise for me and the dog!

Do physical therapy exercises – PT was prescribed to rehab my torn Achilles and to hopefully prevent the other one from tearing.  Torn Achilles equals no riding or walking dog.

No eating right before bed – I’m not hungry so why am I sitting down with the entire carton of ice cream??  (I do love ice cream though.)

Decrease sugar, increase veggies, eat healthy – Hmmm . . . that’s all kind of vague.

Jump rope daily – My doctor strongly encouraged this for cardio and as a “weight-bearing exercise” to keep the calcium from leaching out of my bones.  Apparently I’ve reached the age where that starts to happen.  Currently, I can jump rope for 2 minutes before I feel like I’m going to die.

O.k., that’s enough!  See how my list just gets longer and longer?  That’s what happens to me!!!  Too many goals . . . unrealistic expectations . . . failure . . . feeling crummy about myself.

Its time for that to change.