I have reached complete overwhelm. I made a new to do list, hoping that would re-focus and organize me. It just made it worse. Looking at my schedule the next few days and the list, I’ve got absolutely no idea how its going to get done. And these are things that really have to be done. I can’t just not return work phone calls! And we have our annual end of the school year swim party on Saturday. I can’t just ignore that!!! I’m kind of freaking out. I really would like to just sit here at my desk and color.
My dog is sitting next to me, whining. He wants to go outside and play or go on a walk or something. I wish he would be quiet. The property isn’t 100% fenced so he’s not allowed to go out without me. And apparently, for some reason, sitting on the back deck isn’t good enough for him at the moment.
I must have put on three different outfits this morning while trying to get dressed for work. One skirt that I haven’t worn for awhile didn’t fit. I mean, like didn’t fit to the point where I wondered when it had ever fit me. That was upsetting. Just before I tried to get dressed I was sort of complimenting myself for having things pretty together. So much for that.
The other day there was a lizard in the house, right outside my closet. I am TERRIFIED of lizards. Its been that kind of week.
Of course, today the kids get out of school early so I have even less time.
I’m drowning in end of the school year activities.
So, for the next 20 minutes, until I have to go pick kids up from school, I’m going to fall back on my strategy for when life gets like this, which is “Do Something . . . Anything.” I’ve found that if I just start going down the to do list, its easier to continue. Starting is the hard part. It doesn’t really matter exactly what I do; anything is better than sitting here and staring out my window.
Here I go . . . something . . . anything. Just start somewhere.